I was raised Catholic and forces to go to Mass until I was 18 - at which point I promptly stuck my two fingers up and didn't go back unless for weddings, funerals or Christmas. Well into my thirties I still struggled saying things like 'Jesus' as a form of expression of shock, or 'God damned it'. My indoctrination into the Church had been that thorough. I still feel permanently guilty for just about any form of pleasurable act because we are all sinners after all - or at least if you were raised Catholic you are.
I haven't been to Mass in five years and only used to go on Christmas Eve because they did a pagent and it felt 'Christmas-y'. Recent gf's have all been intelligent and aren't into religion.
The back story is that my dad taught for the Catholic school system here in Canada and that we had to go to Mass in order to keep up appearances. Both sets of my grandparents came from very devout German Catholic families.
I always hated church, yet would still strangely consider myself Catholic. I want my little fella to attend a Catholic school so he'll receive the same perpetual guilt complex I did. I'd also like to get married in a church, but merely because it feels 'right' and that they're very pretty structures.
That said, the most damning thing I took in school was my world regions course in grade 11 - which thoroughly confirmed to me that humans are whacko when it comes to religion and that Judaism, Islam and Christianity are all the same religions going about it differently.
The irony? I'd have never taken that course if I'd have attended a public school. In a way, being spoon fed and indoctrinated helped me open my mind and discover other insights into religions and thoughts. I was also perpetually in conflict with the teachings of my 'faith' when my dad was a chemistry teacher who firmly believed in science and scientific method.
I've been told I echo sentiments of B'haism. I just say I'm not religious - which is true - even though I'd still strangely consider myself Catholic.